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I Can't Find It in My Heart

from Hardcore for Jesus (recordings 1985​-​1989) by The Lead

  • Compact Disc (CD) + Digital Album

    One of 200 CDs made by Retroactive Records in 2006 and signed and numbered by Rob Christie, Nina Llopis, and Julio Rey.

    Includes unlimited streaming of Hardcore for Jesus (recordings 1985-1989) via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
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I know it’s like this everywhere
But I can’t help it I’ve got to care
If only cause it’s hit me in the face
Lost a few notches in the spiritual rat race
Seems some church brothers lied about me
Word’s gotten around what could they think of me?

I can’t find it in my heart
To forget to forgive how shall I then live?

I’m not in love I just made a friend
Nothing’s going on we both understand
But righteous anger has turned to rage
And rebuke has turned into a war waged
Youth group and service all eyes are on me
And I’m getting getting getting getting angry

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And so I suffer and I suffer . . .

I know it’s pride I keep hanging onto
God will strike me my grip will soften
I’ll beak down and forgive any day
But when they say hello, I’ll probably still look away


from Hardcore for Jesus (recordings 1985​-​1989), released October 6, 2006
Written by Julio Rey


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Christian hardcore punk pioneers of the 1980s, now Christian post-hardcore apostles with a lower case 'a'

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